Sunday, August 28, 2005
Recapping...
Okies... time to reflect on wat has been goin on since my last posting... hmmm... first, ders the tv marathon dat was not meant to be... hahaha... in other words i was too damn tired dat thursday nite to even get past the first lap... a lil more than halfway thru Lost, i was lost in my own dreams... so, sadly, no OC and One Tree Hill for me...
Second, the interview on friday morning went pretty well i tink... not too stressful or as intimidating as it was made out to be... but then again, i tink its partly bcoz we were the last batch and wateva info dey wanted, dey had already 'squeezed it out' from the other earlier groups... haha... lucky us... we didnt have to crack our brains to bulls*** dat much... after dat notin much was happenin during sch hrs... notin dat i can mention here dat is... hehe... after sch, i went for my hip hop lesson... only ard 8 of us dat nite... i was kinda blur coz i have not attended the last 2 lessons... a lot of new moves which i didnt noe abt... nonetheless it was still fun & i enjoyed myself... good thing i'm a fast learner... hahaha... berat bakul ni nak kene angkat sendri...
Third, stopped by Al-Azhar after my hip hop class wif Noni & Rod after dey finished their step class... so many classes ah... hmmm, lepas exercise je gi makan... bagus lah tu... Rod jez recently got himself a ride... dark blue mitsubishi lancer... coool... masik bau kedai esp the interior... hehe... me mom saw it the other nite and asked me (for the millionth time i suppose) when i would get my own car... pretty weird... since i dun even have a liscence and is NOT planning to get one anytime soon... I'm born to be driven, remember??? hehehe...
Fourth, after the long (actually its not long lah... juz dat i've gotten used to having 3day weeks for the past 2 weeks so dis 5day week seem kinda loooong) week... guess wat... we had to come to sch on a saturday for the p3 screening test... which is kinda a waste of our time bcoz, how shld i put dis nicely... hmmmm... let's see... our kids r not really gifted material? sumting along dat line ya... and we (some of us) had to report at 730 and work all the way till ard 1... when we already noe wat their results would be like... sheesh... dunno why dey bother to come in the first place... are dey deluded or wat... *evil grin* me being mean again...
Fifth, we (as in the teachers in my sch) will be having our Teachers' Day Dinner dis fri at OCC... at the theme dis yr happens to be Wild Wild West... great isnt it... wer on earth r we gonna get cowboy hats and boots... hahaha... not dat im really gonna dress as a cowgirl but... it brings abt another new dilema (i have NOT solved the Turkey one)... shld i spend money to buy smtg appropriate juz for dat one nite... or shld i juz wear anyting dat is nice enuf dat i already own (in my soon-to-explode wardrobe), regardless of whether it fits the theme... pikiran pikiran...
Sixth, ders dis create-a-storybook project dat is due like... dis coming week!!! gosh... come to tink of it... i shld be spending my time now editing wat the kids had done and do the necessary touch-ups... why am i typin dis instead... i need to do my LP too... but on the bright side... another 3day week is approaching... yes!!! yippee!!! hip hip hooray!!! and september hols round the corner... altho its kinda full of activities lined up already... but still... its a week's break from the kids!!! double high-fives all ard.... hehehe...
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Waiting...
For my 3 hr tv fiesta to start dat is... from 10pm to 1am on thursday nites, my room is out of bounds to any guests... even if dat guest comes in the form of my cute adorable inquisitive niece (who is, at the moment, crying bcoz she has a tummy ache... kesian pulak tengok... tapi bingit telinga denga... hehe... my mum & dad trying their best to soothe her...) back to my tv fiesta... Lost followed by The OC followed by One Tree Hill... hmmm... can i bear to keep myself awake tonite... kinda tired and sleepy... plus ders a particular dreaded interview tomoro to tink abt...
oh gosh... the crying is making me wanna tear my hair out... and ruining my concentration... such dat i duno wat i'm typing... dia bunyi lagik!!! hahaha... the disadvantages of having the pc in the living room... 1. no privacy 2. no privacy 3. no privacy 4. keadaan sekeliling yg kadang2 (or often) memekak... sounds from tv, pple, fon, etc...
well... actuali notin much happening 2day... dats why i'm juz crapping... or maybe the wailing is really getting on my nerves... hehe... tink i'll stop now... probably have smtg more interesting to post or discuss or confess in the next few days... or when the enviroment is more conducive for me to pen my thoughts... hehe... 25 mins to go... darn i forgot to buy snacks for tonite...
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Thanking...
My mummy dat is... This entry is dedicated to mummy dearest on her 49th birthday yesterday... and i came up wif a few lines while doing my duty as time-keeper for the psle oral on friday... hehehe... so boring one u noe, must do smtg... here goes...
The years u've spent to raise me
The sacrifices u've made for the good of me
The trials u've endured to benefit me
The lessons aplenty u've taught me
The meals abundance u've prepared for me
The advice relentlessly u've given me
The prayers uncountable u've said for me
The hope unwavering u've harboured for me
The love unconditional u've showered upon me
For all these and more, I'm truly BLESSED to have you as my MUMMY...
Believe it or not, i was actually tearing a lil bit as i was composing dis... hehe... emo pulak eh... nasib baik bebudak yg exam tu tak prasan... dey were prob too nervous abt their exam to bother abt me neway... but juz tinking of wat my mom's been thru... it's amazing... the strength of a woman called Mum... i guess all mothers, their threshold is waaaaay deep... no matter how tough it gets, dey stick it up and get by & most of all... dey will stand by their daughters (or children) ... and even when dey have been disappointed by their own children, dey still pray for the best for them... which leads me into thinking... wat kind of mum am i gonna be...
its kinda far-fetched i noe... not like i'm starting my own family anytime soon... but when the time comes and i eventually do settle down and Insya Allah have children of my own... macamana agaknye... how will my kids turn out??? and the fact dat i see 8 year olds everyday doesnt help either... i see girls dat are soooo disciplined, courteous and kind... its so easy to love & teach them... on the other extreme, i see some kids who r juz hmmmm... lil short of being devils??? hahaha... dats really mean but REALLY... wat is it dat separates these children and make them behave so differently from one another... wat did some parents do right and wat did some parents do wrong? the 'bad' ones (children i mean)... dey test my patience (and all those who come into contact wif them) to the max... noting u do seem to work & u wonder wat kind of upbringing dey had... i try to talk to them, teach them the proper behaviour, instill some kind of morals in their fresh, young heads... but at the end of the day, if their parents do not supplement wat i try soooo hard to do... then i guess my efforts cant amt to much... its juz sickening to inform parents abt their child's misbehaviour only to have them say to u "Oh... at home oso like dat.." in my head, i go like "ooook... dats all u have to say? so wat r u gonna do abt it? r u juz gonna let him be? dis lil thing is ur child!"... sigh... and some crazy pple still have the cheek to say dat a teacher's job is easy...
and smtg happened after sch today... one of the more 'challenging' kids in my class had a complaint from another teacher... so we spoke to his mum... and she was sooo upset she was in tears... coz dis definitely isnt the first time we had to speak to her... and she noes very well wat her son is abt... i feel so sorry for her but i wasnt exactly sure wat to do either... i can only imagine her disappointment & helplessness at her child's behaviour... so her child is only 8... but still.. sigh sigh... i dunno... seems like a sad day ya... plus smtg even sadder happened... or actually its not so much saddening... more of mendatangkan kemarahan... not to me but to a dear fren... must have hurt... aaargh... no words cld express dis... i yg geram utk u tau... macam nak cekik2 batang leher dia... phew... k take deep breaths (jgn over)... but gerl, if u r reading dis... U WILL SURVIVE... i noe i did... i've been der & i lived to tell my story... and so will u...
Sunday, August 21, 2005
Contemplating...
going to Turkey in Dec dat is... should i or shouldnt i... hmmm... up to dis vey moment, am stil comtemplating, thinking, analysing the pros and cons... lets see... the minus points.... 1. kinda costly(wld set me back by 2.5k at least... aaaarggh) 2. going wif kak yang(KY) & her by-then-would-be-husband (macam lampost lak... kental).... now the plus pts... 1. i get to go Turkey 2. i get to go Turkey 3. i get to go Turkey... hahahahaha... now i'm juz crappy... still... shld i or shldnt i... dilema seorang wanita...
the thing is, i wanna go somewer further than juz KL for a holiday man... balik2, hol gi m'sia... takde tempat lain ke kekawan... kita sume kan dah besar... abt time we explore the world... venture out a lil further... hehehe... and i feel now's the best time.... while we r still single (as in unmarried) & earning our own money... but i guess its easier said than done (isnt dat always the case???)... some of us r still living paycheck by paycheck (even wif real jobs!!)... so real holidaying is like out of the question... can only afford cheap, quick getaways across the causeway... aaargh... can be frustrating at times ya... when we were younger and didnt noe any better, we thought we'd be financially settled by now (or settled down for dat matter)... never imagined dat at dis age, we r still budgeting like wat... then we go out and see kids (youngsters, i mean) who dun look a day over 18 all over town... and dey look like dey've got money to throw away... and we'll be wondering, wer the **** do dey get all dat money to spend... hehehe... pelik tapi benar... brings back to my dilema abt going to Turkey... hmmm... its all about the money man...
if only i cld psycho someone into spending dat amt of money to go Turkey in Dec... i'd be damn lucky... til then i'd stil remain as a confused lady contemplating whether i shld take dat flight...
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Learning...
hey hey hey... second entry... hehehe... i could really get addicted to dis.... if not for the fact dat my occupation leaves me zero time to relax... such dat my social life is non-existent... hmmm... i've digressed...
congrats to me... and many tanks to my sis & bro... i've got a new blogskin and a taufik's voice to match... hehehe... yippee!!!
urs sweet truly has juz finished typing my (redundant) pen picture... wat the *toot*... its really a duplication of another document... why oh why do we always have to do double work like dis??? not as if we dun already have much *toot* to do... gd thing i've finished marking my 2 sets of maths wksheets b4 i went out yesterday... phew... am i complaining too much??? hahaha... more to come... der dun seem to be any good shows on tv... even wif cable... aaaaaargh...
but not to fret... i've got my beloved books for company.... hehehehe... dis is a really cool... blogging i mean... gives me the chance to think (or rather, type) aloud... hahaha...
keeping my fingers crossed dat i'll find time to update as frequent as i can... kinda luving dis... hmmm... i gotta pack my stuff for sch tomoro... and i'm really excited bcoz.... jeng jeng jeng... i juz bought a new Nike bag yesterday!!! woohoo... motivation to go to school... hahaha... i sound pathetic...
Testing...
Test 1 2 3... ready for take-off... hahaha... oh God... how do i do dis... as u wld have gussed by now, i'm a virgin blogger and dis is my debut entry... heheh...
hmmm... let's get organized... gotta search for sweeter, cooler templates... gotta add a song... gotta update my profile... gotta do dis and dat... why on earth did i decide to start a blog in the first place??? must be crazee... cld be the hunger too... dat made me do shitty things sometimes...
well, no turning back... it'll be a challenge to maintain dis blog tho... will need the expertise of certain individuals to help me out here... plus counting on the fact dat i wont be too tired
(or lazy...) to post my sweet sweet confessions... hehehe... dis will do for now... outz...