Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Thanking...
My mummy dat is... This entry is dedicated to mummy dearest on her 49th birthday yesterday... and i came up wif a few lines while doing my duty as time-keeper for the psle oral on friday... hehehe... so boring one u noe, must do smtg... here goes...
The years u've spent to raise me
The sacrifices u've made for the good of me
The trials u've endured to benefit me
The lessons aplenty u've taught me
The meals abundance u've prepared for me
The advice relentlessly u've given me
The prayers uncountable u've said for me
The hope unwavering u've harboured for me
The love unconditional u've showered upon me
For all these and more, I'm truly BLESSED to have you as my MUMMY...
Believe it or not, i was actually tearing a lil bit as i was composing dis... hehe... emo pulak eh... nasib baik bebudak yg exam tu tak prasan... dey were prob too nervous abt their exam to bother abt me neway... but juz tinking of wat my mom's been thru... it's amazing... the strength of a woman called Mum... i guess all mothers, their threshold is waaaaay deep... no matter how tough it gets, dey stick it up and get by & most of all... dey will stand by their daughters (or children) ... and even when dey have been disappointed by their own children, dey still pray for the best for them... which leads me into thinking... wat kind of mum am i gonna be...
its kinda far-fetched i noe... not like i'm starting my own family anytime soon... but when the time comes and i eventually do settle down and Insya Allah have children of my own... macamana agaknye... how will my kids turn out??? and the fact dat i see 8 year olds everyday doesnt help either... i see girls dat are soooo disciplined, courteous and kind... its so easy to love & teach them... on the other extreme, i see some kids who r juz hmmmm... lil short of being devils??? hahaha... dats really mean but REALLY... wat is it dat separates these children and make them behave so differently from one another... wat did some parents do right and wat did some parents do wrong? the 'bad' ones (children i mean)... dey test my patience (and all those who come into contact wif them) to the max... noting u do seem to work & u wonder wat kind of upbringing dey had... i try to talk to them, teach them the proper behaviour, instill some kind of morals in their fresh, young heads... but at the end of the day, if their parents do not supplement wat i try soooo hard to do... then i guess my efforts cant amt to much... its juz sickening to inform parents abt their child's misbehaviour only to have them say to u "Oh... at home oso like dat.." in my head, i go like "ooook... dats all u have to say? so wat r u gonna do abt it? r u juz gonna let him be? dis lil thing is ur child!"... sigh... and some crazy pple still have the cheek to say dat a teacher's job is easy...
and smtg happened after sch today... one of the more 'challenging' kids in my class had a complaint from another teacher... so we spoke to his mum... and she was sooo upset she was in tears... coz dis definitely isnt the first time we had to speak to her... and she noes very well wat her son is abt... i feel so sorry for her but i wasnt exactly sure wat to do either... i can only imagine her disappointment & helplessness at her child's behaviour... so her child is only 8... but still.. sigh sigh... i dunno... seems like a sad day ya... plus smtg even sadder happened... or actually its not so much saddening... more of mendatangkan kemarahan... not to me but to a dear fren... must have hurt... aaargh... no words cld express dis... i yg geram utk u tau... macam nak cekik2 batang leher dia... phew... k take deep breaths (jgn over)... but gerl, if u r reading dis... U WILL SURVIVE... i noe i did... i've been der & i lived to tell my story... and so will u...