Sunday, February 12, 2006
Coping...
with a loss is never easy... whether it's a thing or person or wateva... be it ur favourite pair of footwear dat went missing the next morning bcoz u forgot to bring them in the nite before... or it cld be a fren or relative who chose to leave the ctry in search of greener pastures elsewer... a loss is often hard to handle... even if it's only momentary or replaceable... still for dat period of time when dat person /thing is not around... u feel an emptiness dats quite hard to explain... a mixture of longing, regret, hope...
i've been thru losses myself... losing stuff, losing people... or rather people who chose to walk out on me... hehe... ya i can laugh abt it now... but der were moments back then when i felt like the pain was unbearable... times when i had to cry myself to sleep... and the reason why i can go to slumberland was coz my body was too exhausted emotionally... and juz needed to shut down... thank goodness dat didnt went on for long... i mean not like for months and months... i was only in dat sorry state for like 2 weeks max... i've always been able to cope wif 'surprises' well... hehe... some people may see it as 'no heart' or 'takde feeling' or wateva... but i guess i'm juz not the kind to dwell on unhappy thoughts for long... i find it easy to pick myself up, get a grip and move on... focus on happier things... count my blessings...
i guess dat has helped me to cope wif the most recent loss... tho it did not come as a total shock... and we weren't exactly best buddies or soulmates... nonetheless der were enuf shared moments and memories to make his departure difficult to handle... i remember reading the sms in the staff room during my free period... tears juz kept on flowing and flowing... i cldn't even tink abt who i shld call or convey the news to... i dun tink i even replied to the person who smsed... i juz sat der and cried until another fren came into the staff room... and then we cried together...
his passing has made me (and hopefully my other frens) realize dat dis life truly is juz a 'loan'... and could be taken away from us anytime anywer... and we should always make the best of our time here in dis world... whether it is to be the best son/daughter to our parents, to be the best person dat we can be at work/school/to our frens and most importantly the best servant to HIM...
to all Muslim readers... marilah kita sedekahkan surah Al-Fatihah kepada Allahyarham Md Ibrahim Md Rashid... Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh nya... Amin...