Nonetheless, hearing those long overdue apologies made me reflect... actually i didnt really hear it from the horses' mouth... more like thru smses and the msn... (ya... sooo sincere rite... hehe) why dun people ( in my case here, x-boyfrens) think before they act... if they had done dat, they wouldnt need to contact me donkey years later and apologise for all the shit they put me thru... it's like, juz when u've managed to push those memories waaay behind at the backest (if dats the word) of ur mind, they bring it all flooding back... the betrayal, the hurt... tho i'm no longer angry, but still it reminds me of how silly i was to have endured such treatment...

and wat great timing... dis week's really tough... and i have a headache dats buggimg me since yesterday... gosh... and i gotta rush thru dis entry coz the school's gonna close soon...

sharing my painful experience earlier dis afternoon wif all of u... went for a facial and ended up wif a face dat is a mess of red blotches... hehe and again i ask myself the question "why did you put urself thru dis? havent u had enuf the last time? and the time before dat?" hehehe...

dis isnt my first outing... but its very diffferent from the ones i had before... in terms of overall ambience of the place... my very first time was during my NIE days... actually it was juz after our final sem... we were waiting for our results and all... went der wif my galpals... the place was so chic... kinda expensive-looking... so my virgin facial experience was ok... except for one particular part wer i have dis warm air thing on my face... and i had difficulty breathing coz its kinda blocking my nose... and i remembered thinking "is dis supposed to happen?" hehehe well dat was some time ago, in 2004...

fast forward to dec 2005 or was it early 2006... heee i cant quite remember... and once again i braced myself for another facial adventure... dis time wif my 2 sisters... dis 2nd place... i like... very the resort style... relaxed... nice ambience... wood everywhere... even the ladies tending to us were dressed accordingly... hehe tight tshirt and wraparound kain batik thingy... the experience was ok... except for the extraction part... gosh dat was painful, my eyes were tearing... but i loved the part when dey put this mask on our face and den they left us for like... i duno... half an hour? (seemed pretty long) and we could go to zzzzzzzz blissfully... wif the ethnic type of music playing... problem is... i could hear my sister snoring beside me... hehehe so i didnt really get to snooze... we went der a second time several weeks later and dat was it... didnt make time for subsequent apppointments...

fast forward again to dis afternoon... i decided dat its best to choose a place dat is nearer to my house so dat i wont be too lazy to go der regularly... plus the cabfare wont amt to much... hehehe... and dis place is in stark contrast to the resort-like and tranquil place i visited last year... situated in a shopping centre, it looks small from the outside but once u step thru the sliding doors and into the place... waaaah... the beds were placed so near one another... they really optimise every inch of space i tink... hehe... and its totally not serene... as i lay down on the bed... i could hear every single detail of the ongoing conversation from the bed beside mine... lucky thing i dun understand mandarin... which brings me to the next topic... the music dats playing in der... some kinda cantopop songs interchanged wif instrumental lounge music... hehe

i have no complaints abt the service tho... the lady was very kind... she even ran out to grab smtg to fan my face with when i said that the thing she juz applied on my face was a lil biting... hehehe she was fanning away dutifully, which made me giggle... hehe and she laughed along and asked if dat helped... i had to bear wif the normal torture... the extraction part... gosh i almost forgot how much dat hurts... tho she had already warned me... and i had expected it since my last facial was like a year ago... i shudder to tink of the amount of crap dat had gathered and set up house in my pores or wateva... then came another painful experience... using the laser technology thingy to get rid of black spots... dat freckles thingy on my cheeks... wow dat hurts man... it better work and these spots better fall off in the 7 days, as promised...

soooo... will be going der again in 2 weeks time... and hopefully i have the drive to go der every 2 weeks from now on... since its like 10 minutes lrt ride... oh and the liv game has started and i've missed like 10 minutes... shite... gotta go...

in so many ways... part of my living room... my mind... rite now i'm sitting in the dark in my bro's room using my dad's laptop (since i have yet to get my very own)... and the reason why i didnt want to switch on the lights is so dat two lil rascals wont noe dat ders anyone in the room... hehe..

gosh juz moments ago der was soooooo much noise i juz wanna scream... but i cant really do dat if the rascals' parents themselves aint doing anything to stop the madness... i mean, are they deaf or they dun care dat their kids are behaving as such... gosh i'm juz not sure... makes me tink wat kind of parent i'll be if i have my own brood... i mean some people say dat people in my profession either make the worst or best parents... i guess u turn out to be the latter when u spend ur life taking care of people's kids, u kind of not noe wats happening to urs... like some pple may be the DM at work but they cant control their own kids... and they grow up to be such a nitemare... gosh... when u wonder wat went wrong its kinda too late... coz they'll be all grown up and of coz wont listen to wateva u say... they'd most likely do the total opposite...

juz recently, i was listening to my dear cuzin lamenting... we're kinda in the same freaking boat... part-time parents to kids that are not ours... and wondering wat goes on in the minds of weekend parents... are we being selfish? overly-sensitive? unduely irritated? i mean both us are not married, we do not have children so maybe we shold juz keep our mouths shut since we probably dont noe wat its like to juggle work and family... but then again isnt dat smtg they chose for themselves... like noone put a agun to their heads to settle down and start a family... so why isit dat we (the singles) have to sacrifice our freedom (and sanity at times) juz so dat we could tend to their kids...

my mum was juz saying, earlier in the day while we were doing our cleaning up, dat she had never asked anyone to take care of her kids for her... not even for a day... well, times have changed dear mum... we will definitely enjoy the company of their kids when they wanna hang out wif frens or watch a movie or any other activity dat should not involve kids... and it irritates the h**l out of me ( and my cuzin) when our mums complain abt the situation... but never did say or do anything abt it... we'd be like... "why are we getting the lecture? tell it to them! we didnt pile our kids on u!" in fact, we had to play a big fat part in the babysitting... and mums cant say no bcoz tak sampai hati and all dat crap... kesian and wateva... wat abt me!!! hello... who's gonna kesian me, huh?

lucky thing the kids are cute... but no matter how cute, when they get irritating u juz wanna scream ur head off and tell them to bugger off... sigh... its juz a sad situation... its a constant dilema dat some of my colleagues are facing today... if u work, someone's gotta take care of ur kids... u cant be der all the time... but at the same time, i cant help but wonder... while some feel guilty about not being der for their kids, der are those who are more than glad to deposit their kids somewer... be it with their parents, in-laws or childcare centres... its as if a big load is off their shoulders or smtg... hehe... and we go like... wat the h**l... dun they realise that when they decide to make a baby, their whole life will change...? dat no matter wat, the kids come first...? dat ders sooooo amny things (or luxuries) dat u have to forego...? well i guess a saying i once came across is true... anyone can be a father but not everyone can be a daddy... guess the same goes for mothers and mummies...

i hope i have not offended anyone by writing this entry... hehehe... juz my thoughts on how not easy it is to have a family in present day spore... and i guess i learnt smtg (or learnt lots) by being a single woman still living wif my parents and unwittingly dragged into the babysitting bisnes... *sigh*

Prison Break 2 is starting soon, in a few minutes... hehehe i'm still xcited even tho i have watched the first 13 episodes of this season on the net during the last dec hols... hmmmm lets see... wat are the chances dat i'll get to watch in peace... hehehe yup u got dat rite cuzin... very slim... double trouble will start the moment i step out of this room... sheesh... the story of my life...